Wednesday, April 30, 2008

My latest obsession

I'm constantly on the lookout for things to keep me busy as I anxiously await the arrival of Toman Baby #3. I've been knitting A LOT, and that has led to collecting books about knitting. Recently a friend had me sign up with , an online book club that lets you trade books you have for books you want. I love the opportunity to clean out and declutter, while at the same time making room for books I really want. When you sign up, you start with 2 credits right away that you can use to request books other members have listed. Then, every time you send out a book, you get another credit. I'm thouroughly enjoying my new book collection!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Mental Block

I think I figured out what my mental block is for having this baby. I feel overwhelmed, and I fear that it will only get worse. I already have two small boys who run me to the ground daily. Neil helps a lot, but he gets frustrated sometimes and then he's no help at all. I feel like I'm going to be all alone, crying, trying to make three crying boys happy when no one wants to be.
If that's not it, then it might be that I want a girl sooooo badly. I've been referring to this baby as a boy now for as long as I can remember, but I want a girl. I'm afraid I won't get her, and then I'll have to morn not having a girl and at the same time bond with my new son.
I recognize that this is all a part of God's plan for me and for our family - that he knows what I want, what I need, what I can handle, and what I can't. I also know that it's a little too late to say I can't handle any more kids.
I don't have the answers. Give me a few posts, it will take me a while to work through this.

Monday Night Knitting

I met a new knitting group last night! I found them off of, and we had a great time. I enjoyed seeing what others were making and the yummy yarns they were using, and I learned a few things too.
  • I pick, and I throw. I pick when I knit, and I throw when I purl.
  • Self-striping sock yarns self stripe no matter what size you make.
  • Yummy yarns almost always come from somewhere else, not North Dakota.
  • I could do two-stranded colorwork, I just have to try. So, I'm going to try with a fair isle headband.

So that means I need to get a couple WIPs off the needles so I can use those needles for something else. :D It's a great distraction from the coming new baby.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Due when?

Because I was still breastfeeding Nick when I got my LMP, we had a hard time dating this pregnancy. In retrospect, we should have done an early ultrasound to date it, but we didn't. What does this mean for me? My EDD could be off by up to 2 weeks!!! That puts me with a EDD range of April 18th-May 2, and a birth range of April 4th-May 16th. What on earth am I going to do if I go until the middle of MAY???

Saturday, April 19, 2008


Yesterday was my due date. I thought I would be more upset about "going over," but I feel less anxious now that it's past. I can't wait to meet our new baby - I did send Neil out to buy something pink "just in case."
I spent most of today chasing the boys around at Grandpa's. We played in the backyard. We played in the front yard. And then the backyard. And then the front yard. Back and forth all afternoon. I'm sooooo wore out - I told Neil I feel like I used to feel right after soccer practice.
I got my Ravelry invite yesterday! It is one cool site, with lots of organizational tools that I just love. I don't post much about my knitting, but that may change since Ravelry can read the RSS off of here.